Wednesday, July 9, 2003 Lucky is on the catcam. She’s gotten so very small. She was never a big cat, but time and ill health is taking a toll on her. I don’t think she’ll be with us much longer. *tears* I know the kidneys are a problem, and she’s getting fluids three times a week. The fluids have helped DeeJay immensely, but other than his lack of a colon, he has no other health problems. But Lucky has those damned ear polyps and I know those are affecting her adversely. This morning, she didn’t want anything to eat and when I moved her, there was a little poop stuck to her. I watched her later in a litterbox and she was having a hard time squeezing. I started her on Nutri-Cal this morning, and I hope it helps her a little, maybe until she’s over this hump. And I do realize, that maybe what’s a hump to me is an insurmountable object to her. I’ll do right by her, whatever she decides.
I got my peepads yesterday and I’ve replaced the one in front of the hallway litterbox four times now. Lucky has taken to using that box. Yesterday, I picked a whole bunch of dried litter clumps from between her toes. I hope that made her a little more comfortable. With the peepads, there shouldn’t be the problem. She is still purring, which is a good sign. Brian bought her some deli beef yesterday and she really enjoyed that. She wasn’t interested in it this morning, though. I hate this. Yesterday, she went outside and slept in the sun, on pillows. She ate last night. Someone on another board had written first there were more good weeks than bad. Then there were more good days than bad. Then it was down to a matter of good hours. That was when it was time. This is so hard to think about. I think we have a tortie curse, I really do. Lola getting cancer, Pepper dying of cancer, then Lola dying of cancer, now Lucky. I can’t see her being around more than a couple of weeks, unless she’s the recipient of a miracle.
Since the pads got here, I’m going to wash the bad parts of the sofas in the living room. The parts I know where the cats have been peeing. Then, when they’ve dried out, I’ll put pads down and put the clean slipcover over those. I hope it helps keep these things cleaner. Right now, I need to do something active. I’m feeling very sad.
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