Where you can't really define exactly what's wrong or how to fix it?
Monday I was in the worst mood. I think it was because of those Disney meet videos I was putting up. I'd been pressuring myself to get it done for a while now, it's just been hanging over my head since last November when I figured it would be a great idea to upload them to a domain I'd had forever and had a place I could run it that wouldn't cost me any more money (it's an addon at lvdesigns) and once I get started on something like this, I won't relax until I'm done.
We had the movie to go to, we were running late, and I was back in here correcting coding until we were walking out the door. I was more concerned about that than the movie.
And I started to feel sorry for myself. I hate it when I do that. Watching the videos started me feeling melancholy, nostalgic and sad for all the fun we used to have back at the beginning, hell, even just a few years ago. We'd have our meals together, we'd go on rides as this big group both days we were there. For some reason, that started changing the past few years.
We decided back in September of 2012 that we'd do two more. That would give us fifteen years of meets and I'd be sixty. But working with these videos, I started to question that (not hard, but it was there). Seeing the video from the last couple of meets, though, there's no question that bringing these to a close was a good thing. For the past two years, there was only one day when we were a group at the parks all day, into the evening. It was no longer a "meet", it was more like a family reunion (and family reunions do not happen every year). *lol* We're getting older, we're getting tired and it's just too much. Age, health problems, the economy, life circumstances, all change over time. I love all of my Disney peeps and there's a strong chance I'll never see some of them again.
Looking back over the past year, I think we can do day trips throughout the year nicely. No pressure. We just let folks know we'll be there and if anyone can make it, fine. If not, fine. No pressure.
In July of last year I got this deal thing from a local television thing where we can get three nights at a hotel for $79.00. I paid the $49 when I bought the voucher. It's good until December of this year. I contacted the website to see if I can get a refund. Because chances are slim that we'd ever make it up there for one night, let alone three. Can't afford the sitter and Brian's just too darned busy.
I got the last completed video sections uploaded this morning and it was as if this huge weight was lifted off of my shoulders. Sure, I'll probably be the only one to ever visit it, but it was on my "to do" list and now it's done.
And that weird mood has passed.
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