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      Saturday, June 04, 2016

04:42 PM - 06/04/2016

The topic: So far, so good

Not being on the Lexapro hasn't caused any major issues as yet. It's been ten days since I've had one. I have been having a headache in the middle of the day, but that's okay. I haven't had any sleep issues since that one day.

A friend said she hated the year she was on it. Said that she felt like a zombie and that she'd lost a year of her life. Well, I sure liked not obsessing over the little things, but I'm finding things funny again. I mean, I'm laughing. And I'm actually doing things. Today, I washed the kitchen, dining room, family room, entry way and bedroom floors because my feet stuck to them. I was wearing socks to keep my feet from sticking. And my socks got dirtier in the house than when I walked outside. It's been bad and I didn't realize how bad it was.  I washed the bed clothes and put fresh linen on the bed. Made breakfast, washed the dishes and ran the dishwasher.

It's hot here today and I put on my suit and went into the pool to cool off after all the work I did. So, I sure seem to be doing better. Talking to quitting with Brian, he said now he better understands people who go off of their medications. How sometimes being on them is worse than not. I know my leg pain was amost unbearable.

So, if things continue this way, I'll be calling and cancelling my appointment for next Thursday. I'm hoping whatever was rolling around in my head that got me started on Lexapro is gone and that depression is gone. I'm hoping it wasn't a permanent state of mind.


04:57 PM - 06/04/2016

The topic: Miss Elizabeth doesn’t do well in the heat

And we don't know if she'll make it through this summer. Walking is getting tougher for her. She loves being outside, though, and she's actually figured out that just because the screen door is closed, doesn't mean she has to stay in. There's the door in the garage. She gets through the cat door with no problem. Blocking that sent her in search of another way out and she remembered/found the laundry room cat door.

And out she went.

Last week was cloudy and cool, but Thursday that broke up and the heat came in. It was pretty hot yesterday. Miss was under the tractor on her blanket and Brian brought her in yesterday afternoon, very concerned. It was a SubQ day, so I gave her fluids and she ate some watered down A/D. I put her on the bed and brushed her, cleaned her ears (they were horrible) and cleaning her ears relaxed her so much, she peed (which is why I changed the sheets as mentioned in the previous post - we just pulled them off of the bed and slept on the mattress pad).

Brian brought her in an hour or so ago and I brushed her and cut some of her mats off (she's bad again). She ate some more and now she's back on the bed. It's fairly cool in there compared to outside, for sure, and the ceiling fan is on full blast.  I may give her more fluids tonight since she doesn't seem to be drinking much. She's had kidney problems for a while now and she's done much better than we ever expected. But I'll be surprised if she sees twenty-three.


05:37 PM - 06/04/2016

The topic: The birthday cards for the kids

Not much of a tutorial here, there was really nothing special about how they went together. I didn't take a ton of photos for these, but I did take some.

I cut the pieces for both cards before I started assembling them. As I usually do, I put each card set in it's own plastic bag so that things didn't get mixed up. I've started doing this with all of my projects, even when all I have is the paper picked out. I put the paper and pdf file (cut directions) in the bag so when I'm ready, everything is at my fingertips. No more digging through the trash when I can't find a missing piece.

The cards I made were the castle card from the Box Card kit and  the ferris wheel card from the  Summer Box Card kit. And here are the photos. And as is usually the way this works, these are thumbnail photos. If you would like to see a larger photo to see more detail, click on the photo where you will be whisked away to my photo gallery and a larger image. Most of these are 2000 pixels wide, a few are only 1000 pixels wide. To see the full 2000 pixel photo, click on the little magnifying glass at the top right of the photo. So, here we go.

First off, here are the pieces for the ferris wheel card. The paper I got was from Joann's. They had a huge sale online (I've found better deals and a larger selection online) with half priced card stacks and three dollar shipping. It would have cost that in fuel to go to the brick and mortar store. The only drawback is it is most certainly not immediate gratification, but who doesn't love getting stuff in the mail? The paper I used for the bases was Baby Boy and Baby Girl from Me & My Big Ideas (mambi). I tried to keep the paper patterns as similar to one another as I could, so there would be continuity between the two box cards. Twins and all that.

All of the pieces

I embossed the panels. This paper was a different color on each side and I took advantage of that.  I used the dots embossing folder from Darice.

This is the inside of the card - I cut two of the ducks and two of the panel. The original calls for just one duck and one panel, but I thought it would look more finished if it looked the same from both sides. And I doubled up cutting on those little u shaped pieces along the top.


Close up of the duck and banners (made with DCWV Glitter Stock pad)


I branded both cards inside in an inconspicuous area. Let's not forget who made these. I'l ltake the credit, thank you, very much.


It's officially a box.


The back side of box.


Now, this was one of the discoveries I made that really excited me. Mini stamps. The last few times I'd made stamps, I wasn't happy with them. They were not clean and crisp, even though they were a lot bigger than this one. Well, as happens so often (I'm sure this isn't just me) you can spend hours and hours looking for a resolution to a problem and not find anything that halfway works. Then, a few months later you search again and voila! The answer to your problem. In this case, I was "cooking" the stamp to long to begin with. It goes into a light box and it was being overexposed. I followed directions every time, but the directions were wrong for me. Instructions say one hundred seconds, but sixty worked much better. When I realized how small the sentiment area was, and I also realized after checking my stamp stash, that nothing I had would work there, I was at a loss. So, lightbulb moment! Make my own!

Which I did. I made nine "Happy Birthday!" stamps with nine different fonts. The size of the negative where all nine Happy Birthdays! were is 4" x 2.5" and you can't go to the edges, so they're pretty small. Unfortunately, I didn't do a good job of the initial cleaning (where you get rid of all of the excess gel with a brush and dish detergent) and the holes in the letters aren't clear in some of the stamps. Like the B in Birthday.  I'd not gotten all of the gel out before starting the hardening process. But in all, it took about twenty minutes from start to finish. In these two photos, you can see how small the stamps are. Oh, the stampmaker I have is an ImagePac Stampmaker. You can shop around for a better price, I got mine from DickBlick.com. Walmart has some good deals on the negative paper. But DickBlick.com has some decent sales for the other consumables. Brian went to a local plastics place and bought acrylic block remnants and cut them to size for me, I attach the stamps with my much loved Beacon 3-in-1 glue and I put some empty wooden thread spools I got over on eBay from China as handles. It works for us.

For the castle card, for embossing the outside panels, I use the bricks embossing folder from Dariece. I also inked the folder before embossing, which gives the bricks even more of a three dimensonal look. See how the "grout" is darker? Ink, baby. That's ink. Something I do every couple of months, is head over to Amazon.com and search for embossing folders, then buy the add-ons. I can usually get enough to reach the magic $25.00 limit. If you look closely at the door in the castle card (bigger picture?) you'll see a little Teddy Bear inside. I cut that out from the paper I used for the boy's card. Continuity...

The backside of the finished cards. I didn't put foam spacers here since I think it would make it harder to write on the paper.

The window at the back of the ferris wheel card.

Both cards, finished and sitting on their respective envelopes. The patterns of the inside of the envelopes are identical, the color is what's different. I choose advanced cutting in Silhouette Design Studio when I have something that has scoring on it. I can choose a different depth for the blade, say choose the vinyl or copy paper setting . When I'm working with it, I actually score it again with a straight edge and scoring tool. But there are still puncture marks where the paper is folded, which makes it weaker. From now on, when I do the envelopes, I'll be using packing tape on the inside of the envelope along the score lines to strengthen the folds.


The flattened cards - the elastic cord that I used to make the card magic, was purchased from Amazon. My go to store for just about anything. I wound the cord around one of those wooden thread spools.  It works.

Cards in the envelopes. For the edge of these envelopes, since I didn't want my mother-in-law to have to mess around looking for tape or glue, I used Scor-Tape. All she'll need to do is pull the cover tape off and they'll be ready to close.

The reason I link to so much of what I use is so that you can see what I use. If you buy it via my link, great, as I said before, I get a small commission. But if you feel like doing the research, I'm sure you'll find some of these things cheaper elsewhere. I like Amazon because we have Amazon Prime and it works for us. When we go to Walmart, I'll check out what they've got because five bucks here or there doesn't hurt as much as getting a lot of stuff all at once. And I have it when I need it. Also, eBay is a huge resource if you don't mind the wait for shipping from China.



      Sunday, June 05, 2016

11:28 AM - 06/05/2016

The topic: My new awesome idea

The one I mentioned yesterday, about taping along the scored/perfed lines in my paper crafts before gluing them into place. At first I was just thinking about the envelopes, but then I realized it would probably work for anything that was folded, like the bags and boxes. Reinforcing the areas couldn't be a bad thing, right?

I've made bags that started to rip at the edges after folding them. I think tape could go a long way in rectifying this problem. So....I asked Brian his opinion. He thought it would be a great idea. I thought 1/2", but he said 3/4" would be more practical. Off to Amazon. I found tape, it's not expensive, less that six bucks for a thousand feet. That should last a very long time. It's reinforced strapping tape, so it should be pretty strong.

Another thing to be exited about!


01:22 PM - 06/05/2016

The topic: My beautiful balloon!

My latest favorite project. Another hot air balloon from the SVGCuts.com kit "High Skies".

This one is about ten inches tall. I tried my hand at resizing and it worked. I wanted to put a battery operated tealight inside the basket, so I measured how wide it would need to be (two inches). I moved all of the different files onto one virtual mat, grouped them, resized the entire set using the basket bottom svg file as my guide (expanded so that it measured two inches) and all of the other files resized to the correct ratio, then ungrouped them and moved each of them to their own file and renamed them so I'd have them forever. Then I started cutting.

The paper I used for the balloon part was from DCWV. The Stardust Stack. The basket was cut from Darice Signature Series. I cut two of these, mirroring the file onto the same virtual Silhouette mat. I did this so that it would be stronger (my first one didn't seem very sturdy). I embossed one piece and left the other piece as it was. 


As you can see, I went a little crazy with my shimmer spray. The six year old inside of me. "Oooh, shiny...." Except it's pretty strong in me. Maybe because that's because there are ten six year olds inside of this mind. Since I doubled up on this svg file set, I used the second bottom piece for the inside of the basket. I used scissors to trim off a little of each edge so it would fit.

I also got a thin piece of cardboard and cut four pieces that would fit between the inside and outside of the sections that connect to the inside of the balloon. More stabilty. Here's ya some pictures of the basket put together.

Side view

Bottom piece

Interior of basket

The next time I do this, before I start assembly, I'm going to take a straight edge and draw a faint line at the bottom of that top piece so when I bend them, it will be at the same height when I attach them to the balloon and it will be straight and not look like a drunk version that lists to one side.

Then I put the balloon together. I've gotten much better at gluing since my first balloon. Having the right glue helps. wink

Inside layer, the balloon base.

The assembled base.

The basket is glued to the balloon interior. This is when I was wishing I'd straight edged the top portions of the basket. It doesn't sit straight.
Cat photobomb by Charlie Ahole. And there is my project bag.

Now for the outside of the balloon. I used three different papers. I cut two of two and four of one and alternated them thusly (good word, thusly...)

The exterior panels.

Very top piece glued in place. Another reason I like the Beacon 3-in-1 glue so much is because you can roll it with your fingers and make glue boogers. (There's that six year old again...)

 This is one of those places the dental pick comes handy. You know, the ones my hygienest gave me? Pulling that cord through the two holes was a snap.

Almost done with the outside panels. This has been an incredibly smooth assembly.

One panel left to go. (Hey, Allyson, how do ya like my coffee cup? It's TIGGER!!!!)

I Stickled the top and bottom edges of the basket and I wasn't thrilled with my in-house options for the tassels.

Hmm...and even with tassels, it still needs something...but what?  Yeah, I know! I know! Something glittery!  Yay, glittery!  Let's hear it for glittery and shiny! Sure, the banner that surrounds the balloon was cut out of a DCWV Glitzy Glitter pad (okay, kids, remember my earlier admonition...shop; research; wait for sales... then buy as many as you can, that's what I did...) But that just won't be enough. Baby needs shiny! Baby loves sparkle!

And baby got it.


Metallic rick rack! Shiny gold tassels that are the perfect length! Gold Ranger Stickles! (Oh, wait, I didn't use any of that, but I was ready to if I had to, when it comes to sparkly and shiny, you want to be prepared.)



And after adding a little rick rack to the bottom edge of the balloon and putting the tassels in place...finished!  Project complete!


The balloon on the right is my first one, made back in March 2013. Just for comparison. I think I'm getting the hang of this...

And, once again, I'd like to remind you that all of the photos in this post are also in my photo gallery. In the gallery, they are larger sized and you can see more of the detail. You can click on individual photos on this page or just go check out this whole gallery.

Up, up and away....



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      Monday, June 06, 2016

07:49 AM - 06/06/2016

The topic: What a night we had

And both of us are beat this morning.

Last evening started off normally. I made dinner (chicken alfredo with recalled CostCo peas over noodles, we live dangerously, what can I say?). Brian left to get ice cream, brought it home, two pints and both were eaten to empty last night. We watched Game of Thrones, then relaxed on our sofas, then went to bed.

A little after midnight, Bobby woke me up, running from the bedroom growling. Brian said "oh, it's just one cat surprised another'. Yeah, well...I got up and put on my shirt, grabbed a flashlight from the hallway, went into the backyard to see what was going on. Four cats were sitting behind the office, looking to the side of the house. It was odd. I shined the flashlight in that direction. Oh.

I went back inside and told Brian "we have an intruder kitty in the backyard". It took about forty five minutes to let him out, I don't think he was feral, but I know he wasn't alone because I saw another cat at the top of the fence on the outside of the yard. This guy was terrified. I think he finally realized we didn't want to hurt him, when he was trying to get out at the corner down by the pool and I stood there talking softly to him.

We had to get all of the cats in, which is something we haven't done in quite some time. They had to come in, because we needed to open a gate for this fella to leave. Note to self: once a month, do a "kitty in" drill. Find out what works. Treats? Tuna? whatever it takes to get them all in so it's easier than it was last night.

Finally, all cats in, doors locked and blocked, Brian opened the side gate. We couldn't find the cat. I finally saw him behind the dog house on the bank. Brian walked slowly up behind him, rustling the foliage. The kitty came down a little, close enough for me to touch if I'd wanted to (but it wouldn't have been good for him, so I didn't). He just laid there and we looked at one another. I told him he was a good kitty, a handsome kitty, a brave kitty and that it would be okay, he could leave now, the gate was open. He blinked at me, then made his way across the ferns, and I finally saw him jump down into the yard and walk (he didn't run) out of the opened gate. I closed the gate and locked it.

Back to bed we both went. Brian said it took about forty-five minutes. It took me hours to get back to sleep. My hips were screaming (as I told Brian, I'm sure glad my legs weren't hurting). I took a melatonin, drank some water, and stretched out on the sofa (for some reason, my hips don't hurt as much). I finally nodded off, then early this morning, went back to bed and back to sleep.

Today, I know two people who will be dragging. Brian said he wished he could go back to bed and sleep for eight hours. Yeah, that would be nice.


      Tuesday, June 07, 2016

07:08 AM - 06/07/2016

The topic: New “official” rule

Here in the house, anyway.

When you see poop, pee or puke and you say it, the new rule is "s/he who spots it, gots it". In other words, is in charge of cleanup.

Likewise, if you don't see it and don't realize it's there.....(until you step in it with clean socks on...)

07:34 AM - 06/07/2016

The topic: Walk talk

Stuff we say on our morning walks...

Last night I saw the intruder kitty out front when I took some boxes out to the dumpster. I mentioned this to Brian last night and he said he hoped it stayed out there. I told the kitty (I had no idea if he was still around) to stay in the entry way to stay safe (there's a gate on it).

On our walk this morning, I asked Brian if he'd heard the cat during the night. He said he thought he had but wasn't sure. Which made me think of something.

"Sometimes when I think I hear a cat at night, it's really just me breathing" I said. "The stuff that's in my nose makes weird noises when I breathe. Sometimes I listen and it's not my nose, but yours".

And he said "last night you made a sound so loud that it woke me up and the cats were all staring at you". Well, what was it? Was I snoring? Had I stopped breathing and finally remembered to breathe? Was I having a nightmare? He didn't know, he didn't even look at me, just listened then went back to sleep.

Now he has me wondering. Was it one of those weird ass dreams I have and I was shouting out a warning?

I'll never know.


09:46 AM - 06/07/2016

The topic: Why do I even have to put this in writing?

Hell, I remember things from scores of years ago and I can't remember these? Which are recent, recurring answers to my questions?

  • Oracal 651 vinyl is for outdoor use - long lasting and doesn't easily remove
  • Oracal 631 is for indoor - easy to remove and reposition
  • CB09 45 degree blades are for cardstock
  • CB09 60 degree blades are for vinyl cutting

It doesn't change. It's always the same. Why do I always have to look it up?

      Wednesday, June 08, 2016

11:28 AM - 06/08/2016

The topic: I love figuring out something that works

Last year, I shared my vinyl Tinker Bell and Tigger decals that I made. I found digital coloring pages and worked with them so that I could cut vinyl using the patterns. Tigger was easy peasey, all orange. But I wanted a multi-colored Tink. I spent hours trying different processes I'd found online to get the pieces lined up properly, but nothing really worked well. Most of them used registration marks. I tried those and they were a pain in the butt. The registration pieces were bigger than some of the color areas, like the eyes and mouth. I wasted more vinyl than I liked. I ended up not doing anything I saw online, I just kind of muddled through making my own process. My final project, shown in the link above, took hours and hours to do. A lot of problems.

When I cut out the pieces, I cut out extra. And I thought I'd give it another go. And I stumbled upon something that's gonna make this so much easier.

Beacon 3-in-1 glue. Yep, my glue.

Got out my little light box, cut a piece of clear transfer tape with its backing to a little larger than the size of the finished design. I used painter's tape to tape the Tink pattern (the black and white sheet of paper) in the right orientation to the back of the transfer paper. I pulled the clear transfer tape up from the backing, like a flap. I taped the edges of the backing to the light box. I could see the Tink pattern as clear as day. I trimmed excess tape from the vinyl sections (see the fourth photo down in the previous link). I pulled the top of the transfer tape back and put a small amount of Beacon's on the back of a cut vinyl section. (This was a backing to backing situation.) I put that where it belonged on the bottom backing, using the Tink underneath as a guide. Then I put the adhesive flap down on this vinyl piece, did the thing with the scraper to attach the vinyl section to the adhesive. For the smaller pieces, I had to be really careful not to use too much glue. I was able to take the backing off of the vinyl piece without any difficulty. Then I did the next piece. The glue doesn't dry quickly or set on this backing, put it held the paper in place. I was able to slide the vinyl piece with ease and once I had it set where I wanted it, flap down, top down, rubbed the top and the vinyl piece stayed attached to the the transfer tape.

It took me less than ten minutes once I got started.

I'll take video of the process since I was so happy I found something that works. If it helps anyone else, that would be pretty cool.


      Friday, June 10, 2016

09:26 AM - 06/10/2016

The topic: It looks like Marco may have turned a corner

Concerned that he wasn't eating very much (if at all), this past weekend I tried him with chicken baby food. He seemed to like it. He'd have a few bites, then walk over me, to the other side of the sofa. Then come back and walk over me again and let me know he'd like some more, please. Then he'd eat a little more, then climb onto the back of the sofa, go into the window, walk to the other side of the window, jump back down onto the sofa, then head back towards me and he'd walk over my legs again and want to eat a little more. It took over an hour, but he ate a jar of baby food.

We've gone through this a few times this week. Yesterday I switched out the baby food with Hill's A/D and he looked at me as if to say "what the hell is this caca? I ain't eating this!" And he didn't.

Back to baby food. But this morning, he's looking a little better. He did leave some poo spots where he'd been laying down, so I figured maybe this would be an opportune time to start him on that metronidazole we got for him last month. I gave him a dose and he didn't drool it out. That's a good thing.

Then he ate a half a can of some sort of fish Fancy Feast. I added water to it to get him started and he lapped that right up. Then he hit the solid and was kind of iffy, but he had a taste. Then another, then another. Then the walking away started over again. I had a heck of a time keeping the other cats away, but when all was said and done, Marco had eaten at least a half of a can. And now he'sl laying on a towel next to my laptop. He gave himself a very small wash, then settled down. I think he's asleep right now.

      Sunday, June 12, 2016

06:54 AM - 06/12/2016

The topic: I’m hungover

Not from alcohol, but from crap food.

Yesterday morning I put a roast in the crockpot. The close it got to dinner, the less appealing the roast was to me. What was appealing to me was a bunch of those ice cream Drumsticks Brian picked up at Costco last week. And I said as much to him.  He was okay with it.

But he said he'd probably need more to eat, how about chips and guacamole?  Yeah, that sounds good.

He left, brings home a thing with five rolled tacos covered in guac, lettice and cheese and another container with chips covered in melted cheese and guacamole.

We ate. And ate. There were a few chips left when we were done. A half hour we started on the Drumsticks.

I quit before he did. Then my tummy rebelled. I don't blame it, one bit. Antacid taken and I laid back on the sofa waiting for it to take effect. It finally did and I was able to go to bed.

But I'm feeling really pokey this morning....

Good thing we don't do this very often.

      Monday, June 13, 2016

08:38 AM - 06/13/2016

The topic: Fun morning

Finally uninstalling earlier versions of software I've upgraded. Then I'll run a defrag.

So boring.

Looking through my programs list...so many....so many.

What started this? Upgraded my Video Studio Ultimate last night. I had an offer to upgrade for $14.99 (there were three messages about upgrading in version 6, the two most recent gave me a price of $59.99, the oldest was the $14.99)! Yeah, I'm there. I currently have versions 5, 6, 7, 8 and now 9. I'm keeping 6, and uninstalling 5, 7 and 8. Version 9 is 64 bit, which is more powerful than 32 bit. I figure I can do stuff in version 6, save that, then do other stuff with that same file in version 9.

Yeah, I lead a full life....


05:17 PM - 06/13/2016

The topic: I had a question about taking credit card payments

We got a letter last week telling us about how much more we'd be paying for PCI Noncompliance and not having a card reader with chip card technology. Okay, we don't even have a card reader with any technology, we don't take payments in person. It's all done via the internet and I fill out their little compliance thing every year. The next time will be in September.

Of course the letter doesn't have a phone number or who to contact with questions. There was a website for "training". Yeah, I don't think I need training for filling in a form. Besides, I don't fill in anything, the customer does.

Today, I call. Takes about an hour of time to get the final answer. "You're good, don't worry about it."

You know, they're polite. They ask me how I'm doing. I say "I guess pretty good, I haven't punched anyone in the face yet."  Nervous laugh on the other end, I mean, what are they supposed to say?

Which brings me to the point of this post.

I've got my edge back. My sharp sense of snark. And I'm loving it.

It was buried before I started the Lexapro. Then it went way deep while on the med. I didn't even notice it was gone. Until it came back.

And it's WONDERFUL!!!!!


07:06 PM - 06/13/2016

The topic: Okay, I got pictures and video of the Tink decal assembly

You know, in case you really cared. And, long time readers, you know the drill. Clicking on a picture will take you to a bigger photo in my family album; clicking on that picture will open a larger photo.

My paper guides (made from the same file that I used to cut the vinyl pieces), the transfer tape (I use clear so I can see what I'm doing) and the vinyl sections weeded and ready to be applied.
The vinyl pieces were cut using a Silhouette Cameo cutting machine.

What I used. The Scotch tape, the Beacon 3-in-1 glue and a Cricut scraper that came in a kit. The pointy, sharp things, the things you don't run with, I use for weeding the vinyl.
"Weeding" is removing the portions you don't want, like pulling weeds from a garden.


All seven different colors that make up the decal alongside the guide and a dime for size comparison. The Silhouette can make very detailed cuts, as shown in this image.


The guide paper, taped to the tracing light box top and bottom.


The transfer tape over the guide - the carrier (the backing) is taped top and bottom, and when I put the adhesive piece back on, I put it about 1/2" above the carrier piece so it was easier to work with.

And the finished Tinker Bells, both types of wings. I think "oil spill" is a good description of that vinyl.

Let's not forget the video. This is the complete assembly of the decal. I really don't move that fast, though.

Addendum June 14, 2016 --- the progression of this idea

September 6, 2015

September 19, 2015

September 20, 2015

October 27, 2015  Since that entry, I realized it would be much easier and a lot quicker to put the paper guide directly onto the light box, which is shown above. No mirroring necessary.

      Friday, June 17, 2016

11:56 AM - 06/17/2016

The topic: Goodbye, Marco

We'll miss you. I'm glad we slept together last night, I knew you weren't feeling good, I appreciate the purring in my ear that you managed. I knew this past week had been pretty hard on your failing body. But I had hope.

I had hope that we could have more time with you when I saw that you had walked into the bedroom and climbed onto the bed with Brian sometime after four this morning. My hopes were higher when I saw that you'd climbed into the window, after having been so weak yesterday. Yesterday, you were wobbly and could barely hold your head up.

I told myself you were just dehydrated, that all you needed was fluids. The I told myself that if you'd just eat, it would be all better. I opened up a can of people tuna just for you. You lapped the liquid, then turned away. I gave you two different kinds of Fancy Feast. I put A/D, the wonder food, on my finger and put it in your mouth. You swallowed it uneasily, then stumbled away from me. Food and fluids, I told myself, that's all you needed.

This morning, I boiled up a chicken breast just for you. I found you outside, laying in the sun. You didn't want this chicken. You walked away.

You finally came back inside the house and climbed onto the back of the sofa. Behind me. I called the vet and I was told I could bring you in at anytime, I didn't need an appointment. I told Brian that if there was anything to do that would extend your life and make you feel better, we'd do it. He agreed with me.

The vet checked you out. She told us that having a cat a month after an FIP diagnosis was good, that it doesn't happen often. She said the only thing that would help is Buprenex and it might cut your pain by fifty percent, but that you'd never get better, just worse. We couldn't do that to you. Not for us. We couldn't watch you die a little more each day.

We said our goodbyes. I got in my last kisses and you couldn't pull away this time.

Godspeed, Marco Warco Barco Butt. You were one of the best, you'll always be one of the best in our hearts.


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