And the thing is, the lot I’ve got to do is a lot of little things. Just added up, they’re a lot. So, why do I feel so overwhelmed? I could just start doing them, finish one at a time and then they wouldn’t be hanging over my head and leaving me overwhelmed.
Just damn. Well, so far today I’ve put the throw rugs from the office into the laundry, vacuumed the office, washed the many instances of glaring cat pee off of the office floor (used that xfusion or whatever it is, first, let it set, then wiped down with a clean wet towel). My to do paperwork is in neat stacks, I need to get started on those (we still don’t have an efficient system with Brian’s new company - he emails quotes to the customer, I’m *supposed* to get copies of them, I then input them as “estimates” into Quickbooks. Then when the quote is paid, I’m supposed to let him know as I get the message that the customer has paid. Sometimes they pay with a credit card, others with paypal. He sees paypal, I do not. It’s just very unorganized and right now, it’s very fluid because we’re still trying to figure out how to do it. It’s not like his old company at all.
And certain things I see hit me like an off switch. Like when the neighbor leaves the gate open. It throws me off my stride, it messes up my day. The last time we saw this, Brian said “well, go close it”. I did and things were better. It’s just really odd. Sometimes I think that whatever my mom had has passed down to me, although it’s diluted. It’s one of the reasons I had the rugs in the laundry before I was even dressed. I need to get work done in here (the office) and when I see the cat sprayed areas, I’m useless for anything else. If I cleaned them up immediately, I’m sure things would be much better, but I always see them when I’m already doing something and thing “I’ll do that later”.
And it doesn’t help that my allergies are in full swing right now, the right side of my jaw hurts from grinding my teeth, I’m grinding my teeth because my stupid right ear keeps feeling like it has to pop. As I mentioned previously, the doctor told me that it was allergies and to take something for it. The only thing in the house that works is Benedryl. And we all know that Benedryl is not non-drowsy.
It’s been cloudy for over a week (heavy marine layer, the marine is over twenty miles away, but the marine clouds are so thick, they’re almost to our local mountains). Maybe next week we’ll see some blue sky and sun, but it’s starting to wear me out. I need the sun.
Oh, well, back to work. Maybe I can make some headway today.